25: The Castle

 On Tuesday we took off to the coast. Joel, Joel-Ryan, and I. To be honest I was a little scared but I have decided to give Joel one last chance, and he is really trying. Those emotions that I felt when we were fell in love are all coming back. I feel giddy when he holds my hand, I blush when he says 'I love you'. I think this trip is just what we needed.
 


























Joel-Ryan got to stay at his first hotel room. Sadly it wasn't anything fancy just a simple Motel 6. We were only stay one night and heck there is nothing wrong with a Motel 6. Especially if your in the right location haha. I've been to some funky Motel 6s in my times.

As soon as we got there Joel and Joel-Ryan took over the bed for a game of peek-a-boo. Excuse the nakedness, but once he saw sheets he just wanted to play.

He is really big into sheets right now. We actually spend 30 minutes during the day laying in bed just because Joel-Ryan wants to play with sheets. He gets so excited he starts to kick like mad till all the sheets are off of him. Then he eagerly waits for you to put them back on, and the second you do they are right back off.  So if you are ever over to visit and want to hear our little guy laugh you know the first thing to reach for.

We woke up the next morning and headed off to San Simeon. It was such a windy day, as you can tell by my wonderful hairstyle. When we arrived we had to wait about an hour till our tour started. So we walked all around. We ended up out side looking at the trees, birds, and squirrels which Joel-Ryan really didn't enjoy. He was so pissed off at the wind.

Neptune's pool. How freakin' awesome would it be if this was your pool? I can imagine sitting in the living room with guests on a warm summer day. "Hey lets go for a swim next to some ancient ruins." What a way to live.















Remember that living room I talked about? Well, this is it! It was called something else, I think the viewing room or visiting room. I don't remember. But either way it was great. This is probably about a fourth of it.

Then no more then ten minutes after this picture was taken...

He passed out.

He made it half way through the tour and slept the rest. This trip was so much fun. I cannot wait for another.

24: Ugh!!!

I have no clue what happened but for the longest time I could not log in. I started to think, "Don't tell me I am going to have to start this whole blog all over AGAIN!" That would mean blog 3 about the exact same stuff.

Seeing how I have been gone for awhile so much has happen. Joel-Ryan has hit 3 milestones. That's right, THREE.

He has finally rolled over, and boy did he roll. Thursday, February 3rd, we got back to front, then Friday, February 4th, we got front to back. I mean he did it like he's been doing it for months. I missed the back to front. I was in the kitchen making him and I breakfast. When I got up he was laying on the floor playing, next thing I know all I hear is "Uhhh!" and I look back and the little booger is on his stomach. I was so proud I started jumping up and down, smiling and shouting "Good job!" and "You did it!" at him.

Then on Friday everyone caught it. Mom, Stacy, Andrew and me were all in the living room with him and I put him on his tummy. All of a sudden, whoop! He rolled. If you would have blinked you would have missed it.

Now the last milestone. On Wednesday, February 9th, not only did he turn 5 months but he finally got his first tooth! Right now its just a small little white line poking ever so slightly out from his gums but it is there. And boy do I feel it when he takes a bite out of my finger. Which at the moment I really do not mind. I think I am so proud I push the "ouch" to the back of my mind. I just wish Joel-Ryan could do the same. Poor little guy has been up every night in pain. It breaks my heart cause I feel like I cannot do anything to ease the pain. I know there is orajel, tylenol and amber necklaces but I feel like I have a new born all over again. I am unsure if that cry is a "Mommy I'm in pain" or a "Mommy I'm tired/hungry/cold/hot/etc.".  But all in all I am enjoying this new adventure.

23: Regrets and Raspberries.

This weekend was awful. I honestly regret going. I have never acted more fake in my entire life. Thank goodness it is over. From the beginning all I heard was, "Oh my gosh you use cloth, those are the worse things to put on your baby" to "Oh yeah, so and so has been together for 40 years! I know relationships take work." Says the lady who go a divorce. ::rolls eyes::

I just wish I could put this whole weekend in the back of my mind and never have to think about it again. But then Joel comes around and has been begging for the past two days that he wishes I would move back and that he loves me and wishes I could forgive him. I mean I forgave him how long ago? To be honest every time he begs me I want to take another step away from him. It has gotten to the point where I cannot stand him being around. On Monday he brought up divorce again, I told him that I want full custody. He still cannot see why I do not want him alone with the baby. UGH!!!

On a brighter side someone has learned how to do raspberries, but he only does them during diaper changes. The first time he tried, on Saturday, I honestly thought something was wrong. All he kept doing was "ah..ah...ah" then later on all of a sudden he let out a loud raspberry! I almost died from laughing. Here I was crying and worrying that something was wrong with him, and all he was trying to do was blow a raspberry. Silly boy.

Man, my little guy is growing so quickly. You know that in just 8 short days he will be 5 months. I know! 5 months already. It may be going by quickly but I am loving every minute of it.

Also, I have not forgotten about the blog challenge, just leaving this weekend I was so busy packing and freaking out I did not have a chance to do it. But first thing tomorrow I plan to start.

I promise, if not you guys can kick me virtually.